IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! (14/16)

I'm officially 26. I headed to the gym last night. Got on the elliptical for 20 minutes and the treadmill for 10. I was not in the best mood last night. The thought of how long and hard this journey is going to be is so stressful. BUT, I also realized last night that if I don't do something then it will only get worse. There are mirrors on all the walls in the gym, and I had to see the most horrible angle of myself while on the elliptical ... that sort of sideways/diagonal view ... not flattering. It's just so frustrating that I'm bigger than I've ever been in my life, and I don't need Mr. Mirror reminding me how far I have to go. I did put a sticker on my calendar to congratulate myself for going. That helps some...having a visual representation of what you have done...with preschool stickers...hehe. I'm going to try to go to the grocery store tomorrow, so we avoid eating out on New Year's day. I've made a list of good things to eat. I'm still stumped on what to do for snacks because I know I won't eat carrots if I buy them, and I know I probably shouldn't eat a ton of fruit since it's so sugary. GO AWAY BELLY!

New Year, New Me (size 14/16)

I feel like all I ever do is TALK about losing weight. Jamie and I are NOT moving, and we did NOT get back on track with our food after Thanksgiving. I've only eaten more and gained more. My work pants are sooooooo TIGHT!! I've once again resolved to lose weight for my annual beach trip. The trip usually falls somewhere in May, so that gives me 5-ish months to do SOMETHING, ANYTHING...I'm on my own now...nobody is going to help me...Jamie only helps me GAIN weight. I hate to set myself up for failure, so I'm just going to hope that is not the case. I originally thought that I would try to lose 10 pounds a month, but I don't know how realistic that is. My short term goal is to be down a pants size by February. I don't weigh myself, so I think I'll start posting my current size in the title of each blog. Tomorrow is my birthday, so I DO plan on having a slab-o-cake. January 1st is THE day!!! No more excuses!!! Weight is something that is totally within my control, but I seem to have the hardest time grasping it. I've already given up sodas. I haven't had one in about 20 days, so I think the urge has all but left. My next major goal as far as beverages are concerned is to switch from Sweet Tea to Unsweet Tea with Splenda. My exercise plan right now is to just do SOMETHING, ANYTHING!!! My ideas on food are just to eliminated extra sugar and processed junk. Right now my grocery list inclueds oatmeal, fruit, salad, whole grain bread, turkey, and whatever else I need to keep around to stay sane. SO...here goes nothing...AGAIN!