Day 4 - Counting Calories (14/16)

If I eat just what I've planned for the day, then I'll only be at 1100 calories...and that is a high estimate. I seriously am NOT trying to starve myself. Time for a list:

Instant Oatmeal
Apple
Turkey/Whole Wheat Sandwich
Carrots & Dip
Pudding Cup
Banana
Greek Salad (dinner) (**UPDATE** - I had a cheese quesadilla instead of a salad courtesy of my husband ... so that took me up to about 1300 calories for the day)

I have some stuff to snack on at home if need be. I definitely don't want to send my body into starvation mode because that'll just make things worse. I used the Live Strong website to track my calories. http://www.livestrong.com/profile/jendazzle83/ The "MyPlate" section lets you search for foods by type or brand name. Nice! I don't know how much I'll use this, but it is nice to have around for a reference.

I've been feeling really blobby all day. My clothes are super tight, and it makes me SO uncomfortable (physically and emotionally). We are just at the beginning, so it's too soon for my standard negative attituded. The plan is to head to the gym tonight. Although, I'm almost certain I'll need a nap first since I'm going on about 4.5 hours of sleep. The holiday got my sleep schedule all funked up.

DAY 1 - It's the new year (14/16)

It's day 1! We're going to head to the grocery store and buy healthy stuff! We're also going to the gym at some point since I'm off today. Here we go...I hope to report some sort of results in the next month or two.

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! (14/16)

I'm officially 26. I headed to the gym last night. Got on the elliptical for 20 minutes and the treadmill for 10. I was not in the best mood last night. The thought of how long and hard this journey is going to be is so stressful. BUT, I also realized last night that if I don't do something then it will only get worse. There are mirrors on all the walls in the gym, and I had to see the most horrible angle of myself while on the elliptical ... that sort of sideways/diagonal view ... not flattering. It's just so frustrating that I'm bigger than I've ever been in my life, and I don't need Mr. Mirror reminding me how far I have to go. I did put a sticker on my calendar to congratulate myself for going. That helps some...having a visual representation of what you have done...with preschool stickers...hehe. I'm going to try to go to the grocery store tomorrow, so we avoid eating out on New Year's day. I've made a list of good things to eat. I'm still stumped on what to do for snacks because I know I won't eat carrots if I buy them, and I know I probably shouldn't eat a ton of fruit since it's so sugary. GO AWAY BELLY!

New Year, New Me (size 14/16)

I feel like all I ever do is TALK about losing weight. Jamie and I are NOT moving, and we did NOT get back on track with our food after Thanksgiving. I've only eaten more and gained more. My work pants are sooooooo TIGHT!! I've once again resolved to lose weight for my annual beach trip. The trip usually falls somewhere in May, so that gives me 5-ish months to do SOMETHING, ANYTHING...I'm on my own now...nobody is going to help me...Jamie only helps me GAIN weight. I hate to set myself up for failure, so I'm just going to hope that is not the case. I originally thought that I would try to lose 10 pounds a month, but I don't know how realistic that is. My short term goal is to be down a pants size by February. I don't weigh myself, so I think I'll start posting my current size in the title of each blog. Tomorrow is my birthday, so I DO plan on having a slab-o-cake. January 1st is THE day!!! No more excuses!!! Weight is something that is totally within my control, but I seem to have the hardest time grasping it. I've already given up sodas. I haven't had one in about 20 days, so I think the urge has all but left. My next major goal as far as beverages are concerned is to switch from Sweet Tea to Unsweet Tea with Splenda. My exercise plan right now is to just do SOMETHING, ANYTHING!!! My ideas on food are just to eliminated extra sugar and processed junk. Right now my grocery list inclueds oatmeal, fruit, salad, whole grain bread, turkey, and whatever else I need to keep around to stay sane. SO...here goes nothing...AGAIN!

WANTED: Will Power

Well, I was going strong with the exercise with Sarah until I came down with a cold and missed 2 days of work. Then, as soon as I was well, she had 4 art shows in 1 week. AND this week I am getting sick AGAIN. I swear I've had no immune system since I've moved to Atlanta in 2006. The food still hasn't gotten on track because Jamie and I keep putting it off. We are waiting to see if we are going to move or not. We still haven't gotten an answer on that, and we seem to be getting more and more lazy, depressed and lethargic. I'm so beyond frustrated. The only thing I seem to be consistant at is failure. I'm such a Negative Nancy...bah humbug... Anyway, ONCE AGAIN, I told Jamie that our diet is going to drastically change once we get back from Thanksgiving. I'm also going to have to try to wean myself off soda again. Why are all the tasty things so BAD for you...whyyyyyyy?!?! Grrg! Let's just hope that we get some news soon, so I can get settled into a new place and get on a new routine. One of the youtube people I watch has been on a raw food diet for 18 days and has lost 18 pounds...That may be too extreme for me. Can someone just donate some WILL POWER to me??? HELP!