Day 70 - LOST

No, not the TV show ... just me in general.  I've had a horrible week emotionally, and it has been reflected in my eating and lack of exercise.  I was thinking earlier, "Why do I even bother to create challenges for myself?"... The 30 day challenge I made for myself was a joke.  I haven't done Spartacus once this month, and I've only jogged twice.  I guess I'm wanting something for nothing.  I'm feeling like a loser right now, but I guess I can't give up.  I'd like to say I know when I'll be getting back on the horse, but right now I just do not care.  First, I thought we were going to get to move back home...that's not happening anytime soon.  Now, we may move to another apartment.  Making myself go to the gym is next to impossible.  I hate going...I hate struggling to breathe...I hate getting shin splints.  I guess that tells ya why there are so many fat people in the US ... it is much more enjoyable to eat what you want and lie around ... I don't know how to get to the mindset where I prefer a salad to a burrito ... where I don't feel good UNLESS I exercise.  My motivation is nowhere to be found at this point...and I don't know how to get it back...but I have to figure it out....