Blah Syndrome

I have come to a point where I'm starting to feel unmotivated for several reasons. The diet is stressing me out and I'm having to force myself to go to the gym. This always happens ... I start working really hard ... then I don't see the results I want to see, and my morale goes into the toilet. Yesterday, I went to the gym by myself since Jamie is in Pittsburgh, and someone that I considered significantly larger than me said that she and I were "on the same level." Of course my heart hit the floor. How could I let myself get this big?? I just feel like it is never gonna come off. Oh, and it kind of hurt my feelings the other day when the trainer wasn't going to time me on my workout like he did everyone else. Anyway, these feelings have been building and building inside of me...and I can't even express it all here...but I just saw a picture of me and Jamie, and it made me feel even worse. I gotta get out of this funk...It will never go away if I don't MAKE it go away. Anyway, I think next week I need to work on exercising more...and really trying to change my diet...I'm starting to question if Paleo is right for me...counting calories seemed better to me...anyway, I'm gonna give my YOU ON A DIET book another look... THE END