EVERYBODY LIMBO!!!

I am so sick and tired of my life being in limbo.  It's like I'm always waiting for something to come through, so I can get serious about this whole weightloss shinanigans.  The economy can kiss my donkey!!  I just want us to get settled for Pete's sake!!!!!!!!!!  I feel like I can't ever get comfortable because we are always waiting for this job that MIGHT come through.  Pleeeeeeeeeease just let this one come through ... I'm begging ... I just want to get settled back into a normal routine where the only thing I have to worry about and focus on is dropping this 50 freakin pounds I've been battling with for the past couple years.  I DO NOT want to leave 2010 weighing the same or more than I started it with.  There's no reason for it to not be down.  Right now my head is just swimming with so many "what if's" that I cannot focus on weightloss ... I mean ... I can barely sleep at night lately.  I'm just so frustrated and so tired of waiting to start living my life.  My patience is wearing thin my friend...I just wish my body would do the same *rimshot*