I'll get you next time fat, NEEEEEEEXT TIIIIIME!!!!

Since April my life has been an absolute whirlwind.  I just don't know if I'll ever rid myself of this extra 50 pounds I'm carrying around.  It's easy to plan things out in your head of how you are going to do better, but executing those plans is quite another story.  Since April I've been cut to part time at my job and had 2 parents in the hospital (one was Jamie's dad...the other was my dad).  To say the least I've been stressed out and maybe a bit depressed, so weightloss was put on the back burner AGAIN.  I've pretty much stayed at the same weight the whole time ... going up and down by a few pounds constantly ... I've been walk/jogging here and there, but not on any regular basis like I should.  I really don't know what to do at this point.  I guess all I can do is try my best.  It's just one extra stress that I don't really want to deal with right now ... Le Sigh ... Can somebody lose weight FOR me? Please?