Last night I pulled out my handwritten weight loss journal. I really just used it to write down my weekly measurements. I've gone from the low 200's to the low 160's (and dropping), so that makes me happy! I had written down my hip and waist measurements a few times throughout the year. The first recording was in March of 2013. My hips were 47" and my waist was 35". I'm proud to say that I have dropped SIX inches off my hips and FOUR inches off my waist since then.
At the beginning of the year (2014), I decided to not weigh myself until mid-February since my daddy's passing and a lot of emotional eating had gotten me off track. During the months of November and December, I was so down and depressed that I just didn't care about eating well all the time or getting to the gym. As the new year came into view, I decided that my daddy would not want me to give up on what I've worked so hard to achieve thus far, so I got my butt back to the gym at the beginning of January. I've been eating right again and treating myself a bit ONLY on the weekend.
I still haven't weighed myself, and I don't plan to do so until I can feel a difference. It's easy to let the scale determine how good you are going to feel all day, and the scale is not always an accurate measure of progress (as my BFF, Sarah, reminded me a few days ago). I had gotten into a bad habit of weighing myself almost every morning and getting incredibly upset if the number had gone up at all. There are so many factors that can cause an increase, and most of them are unrelated to gaining actual fat.
I'm currently in a size 12 and a Medium, which isn't tiny or huge. I feel okay where I'm at, but I know I have more to achieve. My goal from the start was to get to a 9 or 10, which is what I wore at my smallest (and I was pretty thin then ... 125ish). I'm only a size-ish away from my goal, which is promising. My weight is probably around 163, but I know I've developed a lot of muscle and dropped a ton of fat (40 pounds gone ... that's more than my toddler weighs!!!). It's possible to get to my goal size without ever making it to my goal weight, but I will still shoot for 140. I don't LOVE putting all these numbers out there for everyone to see, but if it helps someone else get motivated to lose or inspires anyone, I guess it is worth it. Hopefully, you are reading this because you care about me and would never judge me by a number anyway. I'm content where I'm at, but I don't plan to stay here! Onward and upward ... or downward as it would be!
(NOTE TO SELF: MUST UPLOAD NEW AFTER PIX!)
You're amazing and don't let anyone tell you any different! I'm so proud of you! I can't imagine the loss you have dealt/are dealing with and to keep pushing forward is AWESOME! I'd have thrown in the towel and said I'll do it another day. There are a lot of us out here that really care about YOU and not about a number on a scale or a number on a tape! Keep pushing forward/downward as you say! Love you girl!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Keri! It has been hard to stay motivated. I didn't care about much for the first couple months after it happened. The New Year was a perfect time for me to try to start anew and finish what I started! Thanks for showing support!
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