Day 56 - This is HARD!

Why is this so haaaaaaaaaaaaaard?!?!  I'm starting to think some people were just meant to be fluffy :(  Here I am almost 2 months in and hardly anything has changed.  My pants are VERY slightly looser, and my coat buttons a wee bit easier...but it just isn't enough to get me excited.  It's about to be March...one month closer to summer...and I'm feeling really frustrated.  I need to go live way out in the boonies where it is very inconvenient to go out to eat.  I think that is part of my downfall...eating out too much.  And it is weeks like this where I get the most negative on myself because Jamie and I didn't go grocery shopping, so I've been eating out almost everyday.  GRRR!  Every month I say "THIS is going to be the month where I do everything right...eat right...exercise right..."  and then, real life gets in the way.  It seems like there is always SOMETHING that causes me to screw up.  I'm so cranky about this junk right now :(  I need to do something this month coming up that will kickstart things ... get me feeling more motivated.... I need to see some numbers change to feel good about the work I'm doing....time for some research....30 day challenge...here i come!

Day 54 - Working Out at Home

Well, I once again had good intentions, but things went awry.  Today was my Spartacus day...but when I got home I didn't go to the gym right away...BAD PLAN!  So, Jamie and I ended up running to Subway and watching American Idol...THEN, at like 10:45 pm, I finally pulled myself away from the tv and computer, and I did a modified version of the workout in the apartment.  Instead doing 60 seconds of work with 15 seconds of rest, I just did 10 of each exercise.  I did 3 sets.  I'm pretty sweaty, so it was a good workout.  It probably wasn't AS hard as the regular thing, but I think it was a fairly good substitute, and it took half the time.  So, I've made it 2 days straight of working out.  MWF are supposed to be cardio days, and TR are Spartacus days.  I now have a friend doing cardio with me...long-distance of course...but we agreed to keep each other accountable.  Yay!

I haven't been doing my food diary online like I should, so I was thinking about going back to the ole pencil and paper technique.  Today I was totally naughty.  I had a cookie with my Subway meal, AND I had a piece of a candybar.  At least I didn't eat the WHOLE candybar...right?  RIGHT!  So...as they say...ONWARD AND UPWARD!  ...and for some reason I just had the urge to shout TALLY HO! like a pirate... must be delirium setting in...

We're going home this weekend, so that might be challenging as far as food and such.  Which just reminded me that I won't get to workout on Friday like I planned :(  Well, 4 days of exercise is pretty darn good anyway...so I BETTER do all 4...EEK!

OH...and my left knee has started acting up AGAIN!  I swear I would like to shake that Crossfit trainer...that is how I hurt my knee to start with...I shouldn't have been doing some of that stuff...when I look back, I realize it was too advanced for me...I hope my knee heals...PLEASE?!?!

...I forgot to mention the Tall Cinnamon Dulce Latte I had at lunch...FORGIVE ME, PLEEEEEASE!! hehe...

Day 51 - Youtubin'

I just posted a 2nd video to my youtube channel.  I kept waiting and waiting for Jamie to get with me to make a video, but it never happened.  SOOO, I just made one by myself.  The name of my weight loss channel is TheFluffyNuggets...teehee.  I was just reading this WebMD article about the best weight loss exercises, and one of the experts had a quote that I wanted to remember:

"It's so much easier not to eat calories than to burn them off."
http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/features/exercise-lose-weight

That is so true...but easier said than done! haha.  The article said the best thing for weight loss was cardio...I get a different answer to my question everytime I read a new source...ARG!

Day 50 - Fat and Unhappy

Jamie and I went out to lunch and had nachos...I feel physically sick now...bleh!  I skipped breakfast then overate at lunch, and now I'm paying for it.  Oh, and the junk food made me feel horrible about myself in general....SO when I get home I'm going to the gym ASAP!  I also saw a picture of me from last month that was just posted on facebook, and it just looks awful.  Granted I was kinda leaning over...but I could see my belly pooch, and I DID NOT like it...I immediatley UNtagged myself from the picture on facebook.  Anyway,  I can't wish it away, so I guess I'll keep trying the old fashioned way.  It just seems like slow going.  I mean it's been 50 days, and I feel like I've seen very little change.  My pants are a bit looser, so I guess that is something to be happy about...AND my coat is buttoning easier.  I just have to come to grips with the fact that I'm not where i want to be RIGHT NOW...nor will I be when day 60 rolls around.  Moving on...I talked to Jamie about weighing myself, and after he heard my worries, he suggest that I not...since I don't view the number as motivation...it's more of a demotivator for me...when I see a high number, I just wanna give up right away.  So, no weighing for me.  My pants will tell me when I'm where I want to be ... YES, my pants talk to me.

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