Day 50 - Fat and Unhappy

Jamie and I went out to lunch and had nachos...I feel physically sick now...bleh!  I skipped breakfast then overate at lunch, and now I'm paying for it.  Oh, and the junk food made me feel horrible about myself in general....SO when I get home I'm going to the gym ASAP!  I also saw a picture of me from last month that was just posted on facebook, and it just looks awful.  Granted I was kinda leaning over...but I could see my belly pooch, and I DID NOT like it...I immediatley UNtagged myself from the picture on facebook.  Anyway,  I can't wish it away, so I guess I'll keep trying the old fashioned way.  It just seems like slow going.  I mean it's been 50 days, and I feel like I've seen very little change.  My pants are a bit looser, so I guess that is something to be happy about...AND my coat is buttoning easier.  I just have to come to grips with the fact that I'm not where i want to be RIGHT NOW...nor will I be when day 60 rolls around.  Moving on...I talked to Jamie about weighing myself, and after he heard my worries, he suggest that I not...since I don't view the number as motivation...it's more of a demotivator for me...when I see a high number, I just wanna give up right away.  So, no weighing for me.  My pants will tell me when I'm where I want to be ... YES, my pants talk to me.