Day 56 - This is HARD!

Why is this so haaaaaaaaaaaaaard?!?!  I'm starting to think some people were just meant to be fluffy :(  Here I am almost 2 months in and hardly anything has changed.  My pants are VERY slightly looser, and my coat buttons a wee bit easier...but it just isn't enough to get me excited.  It's about to be March...one month closer to summer...and I'm feeling really frustrated.  I need to go live way out in the boonies where it is very inconvenient to go out to eat.  I think that is part of my downfall...eating out too much.  And it is weeks like this where I get the most negative on myself because Jamie and I didn't go grocery shopping, so I've been eating out almost everyday.  GRRR!  Every month I say "THIS is going to be the month where I do everything right...eat right...exercise right..."  and then, real life gets in the way.  It seems like there is always SOMETHING that causes me to screw up.  I'm so cranky about this junk right now :(  I need to do something this month coming up that will kickstart things ... get me feeling more motivated.... I need to see some numbers change to feel good about the work I'm doing....time for some research....30 day challenge...here i come!

Day 54 - Working Out at Home

Well, I once again had good intentions, but things went awry.  Today was my Spartacus day...but when I got home I didn't go to the gym right away...BAD PLAN!  So, Jamie and I ended up running to Subway and watching American Idol...THEN, at like 10:45 pm, I finally pulled myself away from the tv and computer, and I did a modified version of the workout in the apartment.  Instead doing 60 seconds of work with 15 seconds of rest, I just did 10 of each exercise.  I did 3 sets.  I'm pretty sweaty, so it was a good workout.  It probably wasn't AS hard as the regular thing, but I think it was a fairly good substitute, and it took half the time.  So, I've made it 2 days straight of working out.  MWF are supposed to be cardio days, and TR are Spartacus days.  I now have a friend doing cardio with me...long-distance of course...but we agreed to keep each other accountable.  Yay!

I haven't been doing my food diary online like I should, so I was thinking about going back to the ole pencil and paper technique.  Today I was totally naughty.  I had a cookie with my Subway meal, AND I had a piece of a candybar.  At least I didn't eat the WHOLE candybar...right?  RIGHT!  So...as they say...ONWARD AND UPWARD!  ...and for some reason I just had the urge to shout TALLY HO! like a pirate... must be delirium setting in...

We're going home this weekend, so that might be challenging as far as food and such.  Which just reminded me that I won't get to workout on Friday like I planned :(  Well, 4 days of exercise is pretty darn good anyway...so I BETTER do all 4...EEK!

OH...and my left knee has started acting up AGAIN!  I swear I would like to shake that Crossfit trainer...that is how I hurt my knee to start with...I shouldn't have been doing some of that stuff...when I look back, I realize it was too advanced for me...I hope my knee heals...PLEASE?!?!

...I forgot to mention the Tall Cinnamon Dulce Latte I had at lunch...FORGIVE ME, PLEEEEEASE!! hehe...

Day 51 - Youtubin'

I just posted a 2nd video to my youtube channel.  I kept waiting and waiting for Jamie to get with me to make a video, but it never happened.  SOOO, I just made one by myself.  The name of my weight loss channel is TheFluffyNuggets...teehee.  I was just reading this WebMD article about the best weight loss exercises, and one of the experts had a quote that I wanted to remember:

"It's so much easier not to eat calories than to burn them off."
http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/features/exercise-lose-weight

That is so true...but easier said than done! haha.  The article said the best thing for weight loss was cardio...I get a different answer to my question everytime I read a new source...ARG!

Day 50 - Fat and Unhappy

Jamie and I went out to lunch and had nachos...I feel physically sick now...bleh!  I skipped breakfast then overate at lunch, and now I'm paying for it.  Oh, and the junk food made me feel horrible about myself in general....SO when I get home I'm going to the gym ASAP!  I also saw a picture of me from last month that was just posted on facebook, and it just looks awful.  Granted I was kinda leaning over...but I could see my belly pooch, and I DID NOT like it...I immediatley UNtagged myself from the picture on facebook.  Anyway,  I can't wish it away, so I guess I'll keep trying the old fashioned way.  It just seems like slow going.  I mean it's been 50 days, and I feel like I've seen very little change.  My pants are a bit looser, so I guess that is something to be happy about...AND my coat is buttoning easier.  I just have to come to grips with the fact that I'm not where i want to be RIGHT NOW...nor will I be when day 60 rolls around.  Moving on...I talked to Jamie about weighing myself, and after he heard my worries, he suggest that I not...since I don't view the number as motivation...it's more of a demotivator for me...when I see a high number, I just wanna give up right away.  So, no weighing for me.  My pants will tell me when I'm where I want to be ... YES, my pants talk to me.

My Sentiments Exactly

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Day 48 - Chubby Bunny Confusion (14/16)

I found this article that describes everything that I think caused me to gain all my weight:

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/weight-loss/best-way-to-lose-weight

I'm starting to consider weighing myself, but I'm scared it will hinder rather than help.  I'm going to read some more opinions about weighing in and make an informed decision.  While this article suggests weighing in often, I've had a personal trainer tell me that only fighters should weigh in.  He actually removed the scale from the women's locker room at the gym because he saw too many women going in the bathroom proud of their accomplishments, and then coming out in tears or looking depressed.  I'm torn because on one hand I want to keep track of my success, but on the other hand I don't want to get discouraged if I don't see losses.  Maybe not knowing is just living in denial.  Maybe knowing will make me obsess too much about a number.  It's a tough call.  What's a chubby bunny to do?


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Day 47 - De Agony of De Feet (14/16)

Jamie and I walked to Kennesaw Mountain on Sunday with Bailey.  It's at least 3 miles there and 3 miles back....so after a 6 mile walk...MY FEET ARE KILLING ME!!  And, being the graceful moose that I am, I managed to roll my ankle and strain a muscle in my leg.  Anyway, I made it through all 3 rounds of the Spartacus workout last night, but I think I'm going to have to take tonight off cuz it hurts to walk (from the strained muscle).  I wanted to start going 5 or 6 days a week, but that has yet to work out.  I'll go on Wednesday and Friday, but I don't know if I'll have it in me to do more than that.  My body is absolutely exhausted.  I was once again struggling to drag myself out of bed this morning.  I feel like I could just sleep and sleep and sleep.  In fact, on Saturday I pretty much did that.  Jamie woke me up around 9:30 am and brought breakfast home after he got off work.  Then, around 11 am-ish he decided to go take a nap to be prepared for our V-day date.  I proceeded to fall asleep on the couch for the next 7 hours.  OH MY GAWD!  Who does that??  And it was a deep sleep ... not a nappy sleep...I feel like I could probably do that everyday...I'm just ZAPPED.  I'm eating okay...and I'm exercising...I don't know why I'm SO TIRED...ALL THE TIME!!  Moving on...my calorie count was around 1400 yesterday.  I'm trying out those Healthy Choice Fresh Mixers for lunch this week.  They were BOGO at Publix.  They're pretty good...nothing to write home about, but they fill the empty void in my stomach...well, that and a salad... The weekends are still a little rocky for me as far as food goes.  We had Mexican on Friday night...a chicken biscuit on Saturday morning....Sushi on Saturday night....a slice of pizza and a salad for lunch on Sunday...and that was the most eating out I think we've done in the past couple weeks.  We went a little hog wild for some reason.  BUT, we did WALK to the square to get the slice of pizza...AND we did WALK to the mountain and back after a weekend of indulgence.   Oh...I forgot to mention the candy bar I had, but I don't feel so guilty about that since I don't just eat those things everyday...my calories were probably high over the weekend...but not as much as they used to be...It's a process/journey...I think journey sounds kind of corny at this point...but whatever.  I feel like a recovering alcoholic when I say this, but I haven't had a soda in over 2 months...who's proud?? I'm proud!! Woot Woot!  Although, it hasn't seemed to make a huge difference so far...I'm sure it will pay off in the long run... FIN!

Day 42 - Moment of Weakness (14/16)

Oh jeez...I messed up...I let my craving get the best of me.  Jamie wanted Zaxby's ... we went there on my lunch break ... and I got a Big Zax Snack ... THERE ... I SAID IT ... I'm weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaak.... BUT, that said, I must move on and just try to do better.  I'm not perfect...I'm gonna have slip ups...I just have to accept that.  Moving on...I was reading something today that said in order to build muscle and lose fat at the same time, you need to do strength training 3-5 times a week and cardio at least 5 times...WOWZA!!  I've been going to the gym 3 times PERIOD ... and that is on a good week!!  I'm a month and a  half in and I haven't seen as much change as I would have liked, and I think it is because I'm not as dedicated as I sound.  My food situation is okay during the week ... a bit questionable on the weekends.  My gym situation is apparently tame compared to what it should be.  I need to step it up, but I'm such a weenie!  I am going to the gym tonight to do the Spartacus workout again, but I was thinking about it last night ... it is still possible for me to get all my workouts in for the week if I TRY.  It would look something like this:

Monday - nada
Tuesday - Spartacus
Wednesday - nada
Thursday - Spartacus
Friday - Jogging
Saturday - Spartacus
Sunday - Jogging

OK...so that is not 5 days of cardio ... but it IS 3 days of strength training ... and the Spartacus workout is supposed to be sort of a cardio workout also...If I can just find an hour or so everyday for the rest of the week, then I'm golden.  Cross your fingers ... All I can do is try.  I have plenty of excuses this weekend to NOT do anything.  (i.e. - It's Valentine's weekend. -OR-  My husband's parents are coming up...I HAVE TO CLEAN!!!)  Oh dear ... Heaven help me!

Day 41 - Hips Don't Lie (14/16)

I did the Spartacus workout again last night, and my hips hate me now.  It seemed a bit easier yesterday though.  I had to use the 10 pound weights cuz some skinny beeeeches had taken the 8's.  Everytime I turned around one of those chicks was literally lying down.  If you are gonna rest when you come to the gym..don't come...Thanks!  I can't stand those chicks that just come to the gym to basically show people how pretty they look in tight gym clothes...I should really create a new word for those chicks...I already call regular skinny chicks "SKITCHES"...sooooo.....nah...that's all I've got for now....stupid skitches.  Anyhoot, I managed to find a tiny spot to workout in....so whatever.  I strive to someday be a skinny beeotch myself...at this rate it's gonna take a few years...SHEESH!  Welcome back to Negative Town.  I'm gonna keep going...but I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT...HARUMPH!

Day 40 - Chocolate Devil!! (14/16 ... not as snug)

The past few days have been chocolate covered days.  Jamie bought some dark chocolate for me on Saturday...upon my request...and I just had some chocolate turtles from the grocery store.  OH, and I've had 2 energy drinks this week and 2 giant cans of Xing Sweet Tea ... nectar of the gods...haha.  So, I need to slow my roll on all that sugar.  On the up side, my pants are ever so slightly less tight...I'm not going to say they are loose, but they are definitely not cutting off my circulation anymore.  Tonight will be another attempt at the Spartacus workout...on my own this time :(  It's so much easier with a workout buddy.  I haven't been tracking my food very well the past few days, but I'm fairly certain I've been within my range.  I haven't really been eating a ton or anything.  I guess I'm learning to control my portions a little better.  We did have a frozen pizza on Sunday, but I only had one slice.  My appetite has been a bit lacking...except when it comes to sugary things.  So, I don't want to backslide, therefore I must get my booty into the gym more.  I am full of good excuses to NOT exercise though!  I gave myself a pass from the gym yesterday since I was running on 4 hours of sleep.  I didn't think it would do me much good to go in there exhausted from the get go.  Tomorrow I'll have a regular packed lunch again instead of the pasta salad I've had the past 2 days...bleck...no more pasta salad.  Luckily, I made it myself, so it only had light italian dressing in it with a bit of reduced fat feta cheese and black olives.  Tomorrow I'll be back to sammiches and carrots.  Why does the gym have to be such a daunting task...whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy??????????

Tangy Roast Beef Sandwich

Tangy Roast Beef Sandwich

Day 34 - I have a muscle where?! (14/16)

My muscles are still screaming at me from Monday's workout, and I have to try to do it again today... OH MY!!!  I'm hoping that doing it again will help losen these sore muscles up.  My hips and thighs are killing me!  I feel like an old lady everytime I try to get up out of my chair.  Let's just say that I haven't been leaving my desk much the past couple of days ... only for necessary trips like the bathroom or water refills ... I've been pretty good with my calories this week even though I made a Chicken Ring for dinner on Monday and ate the leftovers last night.  It sounds weird, but it is really tasty ... kind of like chicken pot pie but made with crescent rolls laid out in a ring on a pizza pan ... I saved the recipe since it was pretty good and pretty cheap :)  I didn't do anything when I got home yesterday.  I walked in, fed my face, and napped on the couch off and on until bedtime.  Let's see if I can force myself to workout today!

Day 32 - THIS IS SPARTA!!!! (14/16)

Before dinner I was just under 1500 calories, so I'm not sure what I ended at.  I made a Chicken Ring for dinner ... i guess the only really fatty things about it were the cheese and the crescent rolls ... it was pretty tasty.  I'm not stressin' on it though.  Jamie and I did the Spartacus workout ... OH MY!  Here's what that consists of:

3 Rounds of the following doing each exercise for 60 seconds with 15 seconds rest:

Goblet Squats
Mountain Climber
Single Arm Dumbbell Swing
T-Pushups
Split Jump
Dumbbell Row
Dumbbell Side Lunge and Touch
Pushup Position Row
Dumbbell Lunge and Rotation
Dumbbell Push Press

It was tough, but I got through it with some modifications :)